When I think about the time i have left of my youth I can't believe it's almost over. I mean high school is almost over. Seeing the same people over and over again day after day is almost over. So much for having a long term relationship. So much for have those few best friends you keep through out the years. I have friends that have all of this and I'm proud of them. You know not many people read this, I'm not even sure anyone reads this, but I'm so lost in my own thought process sometimes. I want so many things for myself and I can't even get a hold of what type of bread I want for the week. I'm so lost in everything. How did everything get so complicated? Everything is so advanced now. I don't even know what to do with it all. I'm not sure what to feel about this guy I like. I'm not even sure what my English paper topic should be on. Everything is just so, so out of control. I get jealous so much about almost nothing. I overthink everything..everything. I honestly feel bad for my future husband, that being said i can actually tie a fellow down to marry this crazy firecracker of mess. Whatever i just think so much i have no words to write anymore. I hope god or who ever looks out for me lets me be happy soon about anything and everything because i overthink everything and then before i know it, there is nothing there to overthink.
wishing well- moon